I sat in the hospital watching the EKG go up and
down. Up and down with the pauses in between. It
dawned on me that, this is life in a nutshell. We
live our lives the same way. The joy is in the ups
and down, but you have to have the little pauses in
between.
This is the story of some of the ups and downs.
Right now it could be considered a down, but I
choose not to be that way. For those that don’t
know, my heart is quitting on me. I have been
eventuated for transplant and am not a candidate.
So, the long and short of it is that I am on the
short end of it. I am not at the end, but we can
look over the edge, if you know what I mean.
This is not a pity party. On the contrary, I
want this to be a memory and celebration of those
ups and downs. If you know me at all, I am one
that tries very hard to always look at the positive.
I used to drive my mother nuts because of the
philosophy that I should roll with the punches. She
once told me that I needed to stand up more often.
I suppose she was right, but right now, it is better
to roll because for the last year it seems that
every time I turned around I was getting kicked in
the nuts medically.
So, as this thing progresses I will recall good
times and bad. I will tell a funny story or two,
I hope. I will do my best to share my philosophies
and pass on Grandfatherly advice. Maybe my grand
kids will read this some day. However, as society
goes, I would not count on it. Quite frankly, I am
not sure that anyone will read this. People just
don’t do that anymore. If nothing else, it makes me
feel better and besides, I have always wanted to
write something anyway.
When I stepped away from work, I was wondering
to myself what I was going to do. I thought, I will
write a novel. I am not sure I have the attention
span to do that, let alone the time in this life.
So, in the mean time I will settle on this little
ole blog and see where it goes.
So, dear readers that, in a nutshell what this is
about. A dying man and what is in his messed up
little head. So, I have started. That is better
than I have ever done before. Let’s see where this
bad boy goes and I hope you enjoy the Journey.